Its time to say goodbye
After months of deliberating..thinking, I finally made my decision. Something I should do long time ago but was too afraid of the unknown. I tendered my resignation last week to start a new life(not exactly since job scope is about the same) with a new company. Eight years of experience will come in handy. Im pretty nervous to start the new work. Will I be happy? Will I adjust well with the new co-worker? Will I be able to perform well? I am just hoping that things will work out although the old boss said there will be a high expectation on me due to my experience. They would expect lot! Well I am expecting them to expect lot with the money they willing to pay me. It would be a shock if they did not. Anyways I always knew I have to fix my weaknesses. Not many but its pretty vital in my line of work. I need to make myself better. Im sure I can. Changes are good. Good for me and I need it after all the things that happened this year with his death and all.
Need to keep myself busy. I would get the chance to make myself superbusy with the new company ofc with perks. This is how I think. If im not happy at least I have money. ahahahahaha. Shallow huh.Well thats how I see me now at least. Money cant buy love but it sure pays the bills.
letter to heaven
It’s been three months since your passing and I miss you to bits. Still cant accept that you are indeed gone. Life has been hard and it will until god knows when. I feel so lonely, so empty in our loft. This place seems to big now.
Love, just to let you know that I can sleep well now although there are times that I only had two hours of sleep. I can work better now, although I sometimes had tears trickling down my chin and it happened when I did something or looked at something that reminded me of you.
I am trying to make myself better and be strong but again I find it hard to do so.
I wanted to talk about us with others but I dont think they can stand me crying while talking. Cant really find anyone to really listen to what I have to say.
I appeared to be tough and maybe that was why they thought I am alright although I am not. I have lost not only my soul mate but also my best friend, my guru, my mentor. I do not have anyone to bicker with now. No one to argue with about whats happening to the world. I have nothing to look forward to basically.
God is funny sometimes or maybe I got punished for the bad things that I did in past that he took you away from me.
I’ll write more later. I love you and I miss you.
I wish you love- Rachel Yamagachi
This song is so meaningful and I always end up with teary eyes listening to this song.
I wish you love…
It’s been a month now. How time flies..I love YOU and I ALWAYS will.
She was all the things I wasn’t. And i was all the things she wasn’t. she could paint circles around anyone; I couldn’t even draw a straight line. She was never into sports; I’ve always been. Her hand, it fit mine.”
— Jodi Picoult
When you loved someone, you put their needs before your own. No matter how inconceivable those needs were; no matter how fucked up; no matter how much it made you feel like you were ripping yourself into pieces.
You don’t have to say I love you to say I love you,” you said with a shrug. “All you have to do is say my name and I know.
true love is felonious… You take someone’s breath away… You rob them of the ability to utter a single word… You steal a heart.